MONTH #1

As expected, the first month was very emotionally hard for me, and Tucker also. I've learned to keep my spirits up and surround myself with people that love me. I've been trying to keep myself busy, and as a result, this month went by quicker than I thought it would. It also helps that I get to talk to Tucker a lot more than I predicted. So heres the big question, right?..."How's Tucker doing?, What is he doing?" My answer: I know just as much as you do. I wish I had all the answers myself, but the truth is that none of us will know EVERYTHING until he comes back, and even then who knows if he's allowed to talk about some things. What I can tell you, is that when I do get to talk to him, he sounds in good spirits and when I am blessed with video chats via skype (THANK GOD FOR SKYPE! SERIOUSLY) he looks great! He says he gets more sleep there than he does at home, ha, that dang wife and dogs!


(^Video snapshot from a webcam chat)

But he really isn't supposed to talk about his jobs out there, so I know very very little. I've just been holding onto my faith, knowing that there are SOOOO many people praying for him every night. It really is such a comfort with that knowledge. The power of prayer is amazing, and I am not worried. Most of my tears are just a result from him not being with me, or from the weird feeling of being the "kid" of the house again.

My plan to move to Missouri looks like a slim possibility now, I had a vision that everything would be okay once I got there, and I wouldnt think about Tucker because I'd be so wrapped up into my new life out there...but let me tell you, when I went to visit a few weeks ago, NONE of what I thought I would feel was what I actually felt. Instead, I felt somewhat lost, and alone. I loved the feeling of the small town life again, but it just made me depressed, wishing that I was moving there with Tucker. Needless to say, it did not feel right for me, and it just made me think there was something else I am supposed to be doing with this time. For now, I am just staying here with my family and friends in Las Vegas, and taking online classes through my college in California.

My goal is to try to update everyone once a month, for the next 7, 8, 9, however long this is, months. So check back soon!!!